I'm leaving the post title blank for now because I honestly don't know what to title this.
Once upon a time...
I was better about blogging/venting pretty consistently. I was better about eating healthy and exercising. I was better at just about everything. However, not all at the same time.
So why get back on track? Why try to lose weight and get healthy? Why? Why? Why?
I'm not alone anymore. I found someone I love and am actually engaged. He loves me for who I am and I love him for who he is. So why am I making a change now? Why is my 6' 220 lb. fiancé making the change with me? He only has to lose 20-30 pounds. Me, at least 100. Really I should be aiming for 120 total, but I want to see how I feel once I get under 200 lbs. first. I still haven't answered the question, have I? Is it because I want to look good in a wedding dress? I'd say no, but I think any engaged woman who claims she doesn't care how she looks on her wedding day is full of poop. Is it because I want to feel healthier? That's part of it, looking healthier would be nice too. Of course the fact that my clothes are getting tight and I can't afford bigger ones plays a part. But what is it that has pushed me to take a serious look at my life and make a change? I've got a man I love, a job I love, family that loves me, and honestly, I like myself far more than I have in years past. What am I missing that my health could help my have? A baby. Two babies. I want to be a mom. I want to have babies of my own. Ed (fiancé) has two boys and I love them both with all my heart. They're 4 and 9 and I like to think that I treat them as if they were my own, but honestly... I've never had kids, so I have no idea if that's what I'm doing or not. I'm guessing that I don't need to go into detail as to why losing weight and getting healthier would help me not only get pregnant, but have a healthy baby. So I won't. If you're wondering, click here. Want to freak yourself out a little (if you're overweight and trying to get preggers), click here.
What's the plan? Eat better. Duh. Move more. Duh.
More later...
